Find Love and Creativity By Giving Up Selfishness and Resentment
Love is the heart of creation. Love draws thought. Thought is the form of the love.
The thought, in turn, creates an atmosphere. The atmosphere is environment in which the thought form lives. The atmosphere consists of emanations from within, as well as the out breathings of external ready made atmosphere, now altered.
The thought, in order to fulfill itself, then draws upon energy--either emotional energy or the energy gleaned from other identities. And with this energy it reaches out to shape its environment.
The thought forms eventually take on some sort of reality, both in the form of voice, gesture, body language, and other expressions, as well as in the shape of the environment around it.
The material creation we see is the result of God’s creative genius. He created in love, and His wisdom is from His love.
In the case of us humans, who are created beings, our thoughts are the shape of our love. Our love is our life. When we are selfish, immersed in self love, our thoughts are of ourselves and what we want for ourselves and what we don’t want for ourselves.
Wishing, hoping and dreaming (and fearing, dreading, worrying) are our self love seeking to advance and preserve itself.
Our self loves draws imagining (mostly thoughts of lust and hate, glory or revenge), and these thought forms, which are really forms of our love, then create an atmosphere.
The atmosphere for our thoughts is the imagination, and this atmosphere usually deteriorates into a miasma of fears doubts and worries in which the self love and its thoughts live.
Love by itself cannot create. It needs intelligence or thought as its consort. When truth and love combine you have a beautiful thing come into existence. And because this thing has love at its core, it wants to create and love too, so it makes more and more.
An example of the above is the plant. From a seed it grows, ever striving to create more of itself--resulting in beautiful flowers (which attract what they need) and then wonderful fruit. The fruit are the final form of the plant’s love life (which began with the spark of life and intelligence--the genetic code). Because the plant contains life and love, it yearns to create more, and even the fruit contains the seed for an abundance of new plants.
In a similar manner, one creative idea spawns others. The creative genius can’t stop creating. And each new useful thing he makes then leads to other discoveries.
Evil can only imitate creation. It takes what is and uses it to make an illusion of good or abundance. But it always takes more than it gives. In the end, the destruction is revealed. This robbing Peter to pay Paul process can go on for a long time. It’s like a game of musical chairs. But eventually the music must stop and the truth is revealed.
That is why families and whole nations may seem to be doing well for awhile, but if the core of the thing is selfishness, then there will be misuse and abuse, and a gradual wasting and devastation process. This devastation sometimes makes itself obvious in a sudden disease or a sudden breakdown.
A person immersed in self love can only think of pleasure and comfort (food, sex, and luxury or wealth). If his love of self takes the turn of desiring position and power, then he can only think of schemes and cunning ways to gather more and more for himself.
The negative person, who is resentful, has a form of self love which transforms into hatred of others. This resentment (a form of self love) draws paranoid, hateful, and destructive thoughts unto itself. It creates an atmosphere of depression, doom, gloom, or unhappiness in which it exists.
Reaching out into the world, or negatively drawing into itself--the gestures, expressions, movements, words and emanations of such a person are negative, creating an unpleasant atmosphere around themselves.
Once an atmosphere has been created, it tends to have a shaping influence of its own. An atmosphere is not creative--in the sense that it can directly create something--but it influences. In a sense, it can tempt its constituents to shape themselves and adapt to the atmosphere.
For example, animals alter their behavior depending on the atmospheric conditions and weather. To an extent they adapt--growing thicker fur, shedding, or storing food when the weather turns colder.
Animals have a stable identity. Thus they are somewhat influenced by the natural atmosphere, but except for shock or trauma (perhaps brought about by massive change) they remain relatively unchanged.
In fact, certain varieties become extinct, simply because they are not adaptable.
The ones that survive do so not because they are necessarily more adaptable, but simply because they can survive the changed environment. Maybe their fur grows longer and their food habits change, and their species survives.
Humans are the most easily influenced and changeable of all God’s creatures. This is because we are the farthest from the Creator in terms of the long chain of evolutionary development. Rocks do not change. Plants a little. Animals more. Humans, being the farthest removed and also the most complex have many more ways in which they can change.
But there is an even more profound reason why humans are so changeable. It is because we have lost or fallen from our identification with the Creator. Humans are supposed to live in an inner atmosphere of truth and love. This atmosphere is actually a creative force. It is light and warmth of a spiritual nature, containing an essence which maintains and nurtures the created form. But no sooner do we fall away from this inner sustaining factor, then we begin to grow ever more dependent on the external and ever needier of it. And as we adapt to the external, we begin to change, becoming ever more conformed to the outside.
Not only do we adapt to the atmosphere we breathe and the food we eat, but we adapt to the auras and emanations of the humans around us. The atmosphere or environment of people is mainly other people. And so we become increasingly sensitive to them--their wills, wishes and demands. And as other humans (most of whom have no independent life source of their own) make demands for life and energy, we find ourselves unable to resist.
We become very sensitive to their physical and psychic demands. And sensing what they want (our life), we feel pressure. We then either give in or rebel. The psychotic people pleaser and the autistic are two extremes of this process. One keeps giving and the other has withdrawn so as not to have to give more. The one who withdraws, does so to preserve their self--their identity and their life.
Animals that have had conflicting signals may withdraw and become neurotic. For example, a dog was presented a high tone for food and a low tone just before an electric shock. Gradually, over a period of weeks, the high tone was lowered for food and the low tone was raised for shock until at a certain point the two were the same.
The dog experienced terrible conflict concerning whether to eat or run from the shock. Many dogs became neurotic, whimpering, withdrawing, and even refusing to eat.
Something similar happens to children who are subjected to alternate kindness and cruelty. Eventually they withdraw--some into themselves more, some into the world more.
Another variation of the conflict theme is the classic double bind. Something presented is both positively and negatively charged. A person may want to work, but does not want to admit dependence on others. So he retreats. Another may want to be open with others but fears revealing something about himself.
Others develop conflict over guilt. As children they may have been criticized or punished for some natural thing (such as being honest, for example). They then develop emotional conflict whenever they have to speak up (this is the basis of stuttering). Wicked and misguided parents are very good at ruining everything. Sports, school, work, play--everything is done with reward or punishment. For example, a sports minded child may be pressured to compete and win over other kids.
The child may experience conflict over every win. He wants to win, but he feels guilt over it too. The conflict can be the result of betraying his friends or it can be for resenting those who pressured him.
Resentment, you see, is a negative emotion. And when you experience resentment over any activity, it causes conflict.
The child in the above example may withdraw and refuse to complete. He might find a way to lose so that others will give up on him and stop forcing or pressuring him to perform. He might continue to compete and win, repressing the emotional conflict until it erupts as physical symptoms or else bury the conflict under alcohol or such.
A famous baseball player experienced conflict because of his resentment of his dad who was overly harsh on him. The harshness (cruelty really) cause conflict both because of the resentment of his dad (no one wants to resent their dad) and because of the double bind. Accept dad’s harsh assessment and it meant accepting his cruel rejection. Rejecting dad’s assessment meant rejecting dad and admitting that dad hated him.
Alternating fits of love and hate, praise and criticism are guaranteed to cause conflict because the emotional response to the love and the emotional response to the rejection are over the same situation and person (parent, in this case). As previously stated, some kids simply withdraw.
Others go to one extreme or the other. Some rebel, thereafter automatically and violently rebelling against the situation, demand, or person. Others go to the other extreme of conforming. The smooth away their conflict by just giving in, surrendering to and loving the source of conflict.
Others spend their life torn between over and hate, conformity and rebelling--sometimes going one way, then reversing and going the other. If they succeed, they then throw away their riches (often in an effort to get rid of the guilt). Some begin by rebelling, but then either because they can’t stand the power they get (if their rebellion is succeeding) or because of guilt, they give up and let someone else do the deciding.
But one way or another, rebellion and conformity is everyone’s trip--until they have found the key to responding only to principle.
Real success is learning to live in the Light, abiding by principle, holding fast to noble principle and never wavering regardless of wins or losses, easy times or adversity.
If something is true, it is true regardless of what others say and regardless of what intimidation tactics they use. Whether they threaten you with personal loss or whether they offer you approval or perks for going along; nevertheless, what is true is true and what is right is right.
One’s joy should be in seeing what is true, appreciating it and loving it. Any worldly profit or loss should never get between your love of principle and living it. The Source of Principle is the Creator. And when you live according to Principle and give up resentment, it is His life that breathes through you.